I was walking in the desert…..
Hoping that u were by my side……
But then I realized that it was only me & the mirage…
False hope…..was all i was surrounded by…
hope that you will love me back…….
but…u never did return….
I tried hard to walk along you….but my baby steps couldn’t catch u..
I cribbed,i wepped, i din’t slept for nights together…hoping for a better tommorw
Every morning i used wake up….hoping that
“no matter how dark the night is…..the day is always brighter”
I tried hard to ignore the fact that it was only your mirage that was there not you…
i was ready to believe that you are sitting next to me…..but!
i had to believe that u made a joke of me…
that one day i have to end it..
i had to end this for myself…because it was only & myself that was loving..
i hoped that one day, u will come to me& say that I LOVE YOU…but i dint get this moment to share with u…
it was me walking alone in the desert..
hoping that one day our time turns out to be a good time!
but! at last i had to accept it..
i had to end it..
i had to tell my self..that yes…u never lov
our 8 months time together was a mistake..
mistake committed by both us together..
but repercussions handled by one…
what did i expect from you..>?
just loving the child i was…respecting the lady i was..
but u did none..
and now i am on the verge of ending it all…
holding a piece of paper&tears in my eyes..
telling my self that it dint work…
tears are searching for a reason…that
why are these precious diamonds rolling down my cheeks?
my shadow is asking me….what has bothered me so much..
is that my love for u was so self less that it dint deserved few words in return…
or was it my incomplete womanhood that w
i failed as women…as a lover..as belover….i failed..
i couldn’t expect my defeat….!
I was walking in a desert…..
side of a window pane i sit….recalling the best times we had..
how into each other we were..
then I remember the day when u said u never loved me…
i felt ..i could run back to the beautiful moment i shared….
i was escaping the truth..
hoping that it may change..
I was walking in a desert.!