Love or Nothing?

Breakups are tough..Some part of you dies every time! Is it actually worth that much?

Exposing your self, getting hit at the very position where it will last! Why bother getting attached every-time?

Why do material things like EGO self respect matter the most? Is love extinct? or just the right one too vulnerable?? Will two right souls make “ALWAYS & FOREVER” or give up hoping that there is more!

How many number of failed relationships does one need to undergo before walking down the isle? What are the benchmarks one needs to set!

What are the signs one needs to observe?

Is loving someone such a impossible term?

Perhaps, After months of keeping it inside, I finally managed to pen it all down , All the questions I burdened my heart with. Maybe the idea of love is not meant for few people?

Will I ever love again? Silence is all I have. Will I ever trust anybody that much?

May be the idea of true love is a myth!

It is the time to say no to all the romantics novels that describe the idea of love. Infatuation..One night stand..Emotional connect are the words to describe today’s scenario.

Purity and innocence were lost in the stone age.

#WhenhetaughtIwasfakingit  That was the time I was being me.. Yes I was attached because I was fooled by the tears…by the gestures…I believed it will last forever !

Resistance..

why cant i see it??

he doesn’t need me any more..

i am still trying to hang onn..

still pulling the strings…wishing that may be.. I will get him back?

Am i so coward to see the reality??

the truth is knocking the door..

all i have to do is just open the door and let it pass!

will i be able to handle?

Till when i will live in dream?

sky is blue….not because god painted it blue! because blue is reflected!

We get peace while sitting at the sea shore not because the water is serene & life giver..

because we see our life passing it..we compare it to water…we see our biggest heart breaks hitting us like waves!

Nature teaches us every lesson for  which a counselor is paid for!

Why Can’t I see the rejection?

he has cleared but I still see hopes?

why?

because like all love stories I wish to write perfect ending to our story?

but why am I so dumb!

i have walked away from everything that could make me feel real?

why have i become like this?

am I so much in love?

I know I break …but why am I hurting myself more &more?

why do I remember him in every thing?

In every thing that happens around?

why have I become so dependent??

I never saw positive side of anything?

and in this case i am so positive??

enough! I have to leave this!

I have to take it out..I cant walk with heavy heart any more.

I have to let it go

I have to just let it pass

I have to let the sand sweep away i cant just let it hung on

I have to let it goo!!

A last bye…

Every morning i wake up thanking each day that passes in peace.

Every morning gives me a new topic to describe about.

life is beautiful& so are the fellow beings.

we all vary differently but we are grouped in two: Men&Woman.

Men are further known as  son,father,brother,husband,lover.

Women are further known as daughter,mother,sister,wife,beloved.

woman are the carrier of the future.

beholding & grooming…

woman is the symbol of love,serenity and power,

she holds the love for every child on earth,one such women was Mother Teresa.

but she can still fight with all the odds for his child, she is described as immaculate conception in bible.

the mother of the living god.”MOTHER MARY”

she was wife of a ordinary man, who was chosen to give birth to the incarnation,

but she had to answer the unknown.

she is  observed smiling & looking towards sky.

we pray to her for showering us with her love& she still smiles.

Mother’s smile is the most beautiful gift.

One such smile is counting her breathes..

unable to talk, unable to sense.

she lies in I.C.U fighting with the liver cancer, mother of a 6 year old fades away with each passing second.

they say that she is on the terminal stage.

but she fighting with in….

fighting with the demon, not to take her away.

she has said in her quickening voice” i will die….!!!!”

but to her sister she is still the same, the girl fighting with her for her toys.

and today she can’t even recognize her elder sister.

we hope that she returns..at least share her heart out…but she is quiet..she is fading away.!

her child sits next to her & calls out “mumma?”

but she doesn’t answers.

today she can’t even answer her own belonging.

the child asks his father “what has happened to her?”

he can’t explain..

she is hanging there may be for her child..because he was separated from her from past 15 days..

but now..why doesn’t she gets up??

or just bid a good bye..

why doesn’t she end her suffering????

come back  “beta..calls out her  mother” .

why is  she quiet like moonlight?

GOD..why are you  making her suffer so much?

we are here to share her  sorrow.. at least give her voice back!

many life’s have survived this disease then why is this disease engulfing her?

she is so tender..a pure soul…!

why only her?

people do hawan for her..but no effect!

why does it seems likes that god is not their for help?  ?

if she has to go ..let her go in peace..not in pieces!!!!